Thursday, December 6, 2012

My last post to my sweet boy as an only child...

Dear Liam,
Your baby sister is due in just a few days. I doubt if I'll have time again, before she's born, to make another post. You're almost four years old, and I know that you "get" what is about to happen. When Grandma got here yesterday, you kind of freaked out. You've known all along that Grandma would be coming close to the time of the baby's arrival, so she can stay with you when Daddy and I have to go to the hospital. You freaked out before dinner last night, and wouldn't eat dinner unless you were sitting on my lap, with one of my arms wrapped around you. You came to our bed at about 1:30 last night, and would not move away from me; you had to be snuggled up against me, tight, the rest of the night. You were not your usual sweet boy with Grandma last night or this morning. You were very angry with me for leaving you at home with her this morning, but I have to continue to work until the baby comes, to save my time off. I called home at lunchtime today, to see how you were doing, and you whined about wanting me to come home. I had hoped to come home for lunch, but I knew that if I did, you'd freak out when I left to go back to work again. You're already saying you want to go back to school after your long weekend. Well, if you continue to act the way you're acting, I'm pretty sure Grandma will be ready for a break by Monday too!

I know that you understand that big changes are coming. I can see the wheels turning in your little head. I know that your heart is hurting, and that you're scared of someone taking my attention away from you. I want you to know that my heart is hurting too, and that I'm also scared of having another little someone who will have to take my attention away from you. But, I know that my heart has plenty of space to love you both, and I know your heart also has space for your baby sister. Yes, things will be very different, and things probably will be tricky and un-fun for awhile... but they will get better. I will always love you, and my love for you will not change when she arrives. You will always be my "sweet boy." No baby sister can ever change that, I promise you. I love you more than I could ever put into words, and more than you could possibly ever know.

Love,
Mommy

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Big boy!

Dear Liam,
You are getting to be such a big boy! I know that when the baby comes, you're going to seem even bigger, which seems unbelievable right now. We got your school pictures yesterday, and I swear you look like you're about 10 years old in them! Who is this kid?! I love how great you are at posing for photographers. It's pretty amazing- most other kids are not as willing to smile and pose as you are! Now, if you would only let ME take your picture more often!

You got a "new" dresser last week. You got my old dresser, I got a new one, and the baby will get the changing table/dresser that you've had since birth. Your room truly looks like a big boy room now. The dresser has five drawers, instead of just three like the changing table one, and it's also much taller. You room looks really big too!

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I know you're really looking forward to the long weekend. You just LOVE when I come to pick you up at the end of the week, and when I see you, you yell, "it's the WEEKEND!!!" I love our weekends together. I hope to do lots of fun things with you this weekend, like our usual outings to the library and Wonderlab, and hopefully some of the city's holiday activities, like the lighting of the Christmas lights downtown. I think you'll really like it!

Love you, my sweet Li Li Boy,
Mommy

Friday, November 2, 2012

Halloween!

Dear Liam,
Halloween was this week, and you were Captain America. The night before Halloween, you were sooooo excited that you couldn't even fall asleep. You just kept saying, "I just can't wait for Halloween to come, Mommy!" You had a fabulous time trick or treating in our neighborhood, and you were such a polite little boy. It was so much fun.

As usual, you can be pretty crazy sometimes, but you can also be so super sweet. One time, last week, we were coloring in coloring books. There was a page that said you should draw a picture of your best friend. You started drawing, and I asked who you were drawing... and you said, "Well, YOU, Mommy!" I almost cried. You're such a sweet boy.

Recently, on an episode of a TV show I like, one of the characters had a freak-out at work... and it all boiled down to the fact that she was stressed out and depressed over the fact that she'd taken her son to kindergarten, walked into the classroom... and he'd let go of her hand. I keep thinking about that. While watching it, I burst into tears. You always want to hold my hand. We get out of the car, and you immediately reach for my hand. Even just walking from the car into your daycare, you reach for my hand, and you don't let go when I open the gate or the door. I can't imagine a day when you won't reach for my hand. I know that day is coming soon... and I kind of dread it. I love you so much, sweet boy.

Love, Mommy

Friday, October 5, 2012

It's been way too long!

Dear Liam,
I'm so sorry that it's taken me so long to update this blog! I've been so busy, and while I've often though, hmmm... I should take a couple minutes and update Liam's blog... I just never find the time. I'm so sorry.

You're playing soccer at the Y this fall. You are LOVING it! Your team is the Jaguars. There are 6-8 kids on your team. I say 6-8 because not everyone shows up each week... and not every kid participates each week. You always participate, and for the most part, you are such a fabulous listener! I really think your two coaches appreciate how well you follow directions. You look adorable in your gigantic jersey, and your "soccer socks" with the shin guards in them. You basically just run non-stop for 45 minutes. Daddy and I love to watch you play. If you really enjoy it, I'll make sure to sign you up again next year.

You're starting to go to sleep on your own, without me sitting in your room until you fall asleep. You did really well the first 5-6 nights, but the last couple nights you've gotten out of bed a time or two before finally falling asleep. You have me leave your door wide open, with the hall light on. That's okay. I understand- the dark can be scary!

We've been trying to get you to get dressed on your own in the mornings. I made you a cool sticker chart, and it worked for the first few days, but then stopped working. I swear this morning you were possessed by the devil. You were kicking at me and just laughing hysterically. It's not funny to try to hurt me, and I was very sad that you were acting the way you did. You do this most mornings. We told you this morning that you won't get to watch a show in the mornings, from now on, until you get dressed. We'll see if that helps...


10 more weeks (or so) until your baby sister arrives! And very soon after that it'll be Christmas, and then your 4th birthday! December and early January are going to be busy busy busy! Work is going to get really busy for me in the next week or so, and it will then continue to be busy up until baby girl comes, so I have a feeling the next few months are just going to fly by!

Love you,
Mommy

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Baby sister, and a big boy bed!

Dear Liam,
So much has been changing in your little world! A couple weeks ago, we learned that you're going to have a baby sister! You're so excited about it! When we told you, you screamed, "yay!!!!!!!!!!" and ran around the house like a maniac, screaming. I wish I had videotaped it! You're going to be such a great big brother! You often pat my belly and say "hi baby" in a very sweet, high voice. Last night, you helped me "organize" some clothes I bought for the baby, for next summer. You also thought it was hilarious to try on the baby's 3-6 month pink pants!

Over the weekend, we dismantled your crib, and your big boy bed was delivered! You have been sleeping so well in it! You kind of fell out of it on Sunday night, but actually at the foot of the bed. It appeared like you'd twisted yourself up int he sheets, and then tried to get out the foot of the bed, and fell onto the floor. I honestly don't even think you were fully awake. Poor guy! You look so tiny in that big bed! I'm very proud of you for staying in bed all night three nights in a row!

Love you!
Mommy

Thursday, June 21, 2012

I'm a big brother!

Dear Liam,
Last week, you finally put two and two together, and figured out that I'm going to have a baby. I was getting dressed for work one morning, and you were sitting on my bed. I said that none of my clothes were fitting, and you asked me, "Do you need to wear one of Daddy's shirts?" You're too funny. I said "no, Mommy's shirts are fine. It's Mommy's pants that don't fit." You said, "Is it because there's a baby in your belly?" I said, "yes!" And oh my goodness, are you ever excited. You got a new book called "I'm A Big Brother," which we've been reading before bed each night. At Target the other day, practically every item you saw in the baby/kid section, you said you wanted to buy for the new baby. You also yelled out, "I'm going to be a big brother!" to a random customer there. I had told you the baby would be coming in the winter, close to Christmas time, so you keep saying "I want to give this to the new baby for Christmas, when the baby comes at Christmas time." Every time you play with one of your toys at home, you say that you'll give it to the new baby. You're such a sweet boy, Liam.

When I asked you if you wanted a brother or a sister, your answer was, "both!" to which I responded that we'd only have one or the other. Your response then was, "I want a brother, and I will play baseball with him, and we will also have a puppy and a kitty and I will show him how to touch them very gently." Um... I had to inform you that that was NOT going to be happening! No way are we getting a baby AND a pet at the same time. I know you love puppies, Liam... but not now. It's just not the right time. I asked you if it would be okay if the baby's a girl, and you said, "Yes, I will still play baseball with her." I told you that was a very good idea. :)

So far, you seem happy about everything. Lots of changes are coming, and I know there will be some hard times ahead, but you're becoming such a big boy and I think you're going to be okay. Always know that you'll always be my baby too, and that I will always love you no matter what.

Love you, sweet boy,
Mommy

Monday, May 21, 2012

First baseball game!

Dear Liam,

Over the weekend, you went to your first baseball game! You and Daddy and I drove to Auntie Cari and Uncle Ty's house on Friday, and Grandma, Grandpa, Uncle Brian, Auntie Julia, and Uncle David met us there. On Saturday, we went to Milwaukee for the Twins vs. Brewers game. It was a HOT day, but you were such a trooper! Luckily, Auntie Cari and Uncle Ty had a canopy, so we had some shade for tailgaiting. You had fun playing catch, and also playing Uncle Ty's beanbag toss game. We went in to Miller Park for the game... and we discovered that our seats were in literally the top row of the whole stadium! This was actually really nice- we didn't have to deal with anyone else kicking us in the back, there was a really nice breeze up there! You sat through the first few (pretty boring) innings, and then checked out the kids zone, first with me, and then with Daddy. The game ended up going to 11 innings. You *almost* made it to the end- we started to walk out during the 11th inning, while the Twins were up. Someone hit a homerun as we were making our way out, so we were pretty sure the game would be done soon... and it was. The Twins won! What a fun day!

You were amazing in the car. Seriously, we spent 16 hours in the car over the weekend, and you were so good. Grandma came back with us yesterday, and she's going to spend the whole week with you! Lucky boy! I'm going to take a couple days off this week to hang out with you guys, but I have to work 3 of the days. Grandma will fly back to her house on Saturday.

I love you so much, sweet boy. I hope you had a good weekend. I'm pretty darn sure you did. :)

Love,
Mommy

Monday, April 9, 2012

Your life is going to change soon, Liam.

Dear Liam,
Over the weekend, I found out I'm pregnant. You're going to be a big brother in December! Daddy and I are so excited. We won't tell you about this yet for awhile, until my tummy starts to grow. I'm so excited for you to have a little brother or sister. I know that you will be amazing and caring and gentle with the new baby.

Hopefully by the time the new baby comes, you'll be sleeping in your own bed all night every night. :)

I will always love you, Liam. Don't you ever worry about that. You will always be my sweet Li Li Boy, and I will always be your mommy.

Love,
Mommy

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Yay Liam!!!!!!!

Liam,
You haven't had a poopy or potty accident in over a week! You are amazing! Randomly, last Saturday, it must have suddenly just "clicked"! You've been pooping on the potty ever since! You also demand a prize every single time. I'm going to be very, very poor soon! :) You're still wearing a pull-up for naps and bedtime, but you usually stay dry during your naps at daycare, so that's pretty awesome. You are such a big boy! Daddy and I are so proud of you!

Love you bunches,
Mommy

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Happy Third Birthday, Sweet Boy!

Dear Liam,
You are THREE now! THREE!!!!! How is this even possible?! You are getting to be so big, and so smart. I can hardly believe how quickly the last three years have flown by. It seems like just yesterday you were crawling... and now you run, and talk, and can spell your name! You amaze me daily. There's absolutely no way you could ever possibly know how much I love you. Even when you drive me crazy, and act wild, and don't listen to me, and refuse to poop on the potty, and wake up in the middle of the night... it doesn't matter. I love you, and I always will. I can barely fathom how much you're going to change again in the next year.

Don't grow up too soon, sweet boy. I love you.

Love you forever,
Mommy