My last post to my sweet boy as an only child...

Dear Liam,
Your baby sister is due in just a few days. I doubt if I'll have time again, before she's born, to make another post. You're almost four years old, and I know that you "get" what is about to happen. When Grandma got here yesterday, you kind of freaked out. You've known all along that Grandma would be coming close to the time of the baby's arrival, so she can stay with you when Daddy and I have to go to the hospital. You freaked out before dinner last night, and wouldn't eat dinner unless you were sitting on my lap, with one of my arms wrapped around you. You came to our bed at about 1:30 last night, and would not move away from me; you had to be snuggled up against me, tight, the rest of the night. You were not your usual sweet boy with Grandma last night or this morning. You were very angry with me for leaving you at home with her this morning, but I have to continue to work until the baby comes, to save my time off. I called home at lunchtime today, to see how you were doing, and you whined about wanting me to come home. I had hoped to come home for lunch, but I knew that if I did, you'd freak out when I left to go back to work again. You're already saying you want to go back to school after your long weekend. Well, if you continue to act the way you're acting, I'm pretty sure Grandma will be ready for a break by Monday too!

I know that you understand that big changes are coming. I can see the wheels turning in your little head. I know that your heart is hurting, and that you're scared of someone taking my attention away from you. I want you to know that my heart is hurting too, and that I'm also scared of having another little someone who will have to take my attention away from you. But, I know that my heart has plenty of space to love you both, and I know your heart also has space for your baby sister. Yes, things will be very different, and things probably will be tricky and un-fun for awhile... but they will get better. I will always love you, and my love for you will not change when she arrives. You will always be my "sweet boy." No baby sister can ever change that, I promise you. I love you more than I could ever put into words, and more than you could possibly ever know.

Love,
Mommy