No more nursing :(

Liam,
I can hardly believe that you're now done nursing. You haven't really nursed in about 2 weeks now, and you haven't nursed at all in over a week. In between there, you tried to nurse for a minute or so a few times. Your nose has been snotty and yucky for the last month (allergies, I think), so you weren't able to suck very well, so I think you just kind of lost interest. I kept trying to get you to nurse, just one more time, so Daddy could take a picture of us, but it never happened because you had started to refuse (due to your inability to breathe/suck). I can't believe I never had him take a picture before. It makes me very sad that I'll never have a picture of this, but I know that I'll always have the beautiful memories in my mind. It's probably also good that you didn't nurse "just one more time," because I probably would have totally lost it during that nursing session. I had no idea that the last time you really nursed well would be the last time.

I loved nursing you, Liam. It was always our special time together. A time to be still and relaxed and just you and me. I can't believe that we're done. I would have nursed you longer, if you'd wanted to. I'm so proud of us for making it to 15 months! I know lots of other women have problems while breastfeeding, but I never did. It was easy from the beginning, and I rarely ever had any pain (other than when you bit me a few times!). I know it was the best thing I could do for you, and I'm so glad you never had a single drop of formula.

I was so scared to wean you, because I thought I'd have engorgement and pain, but I didn't since we did it so gradually. I haven't had any problems whatsoever. Thank goodness! I'm also glad that we were able to wean in a way that wasn't painful for you. You seem to be doing just fine. Now, we're reading a book before bed each night, sitting in the rocking chair where we used to nurse.

I love you SO much, Liam. In some ways, I feel like this is the end of you being a baby, and the start of you really being a big boy. But, you'll always be my baby.

Love,
Mommy