No more nursing :(

Liam,
I can hardly believe that you're now done nursing. You haven't really nursed in about 2 weeks now, and you haven't nursed at all in over a week. In between there, you tried to nurse for a minute or so a few times. Your nose has been snotty and yucky for the last month (allergies, I think), so you weren't able to suck very well, so I think you just kind of lost interest. I kept trying to get you to nurse, just one more time, so Daddy could take a picture of us, but it never happened because you had started to refuse (due to your inability to breathe/suck). I can't believe I never had him take a picture before. It makes me very sad that I'll never have a picture of this, but I know that I'll always have the beautiful memories in my mind. It's probably also good that you didn't nurse "just one more time," because I probably would have totally lost it during that nursing session. I had no idea that the last time you really nursed well would be the last time.

I loved nursing you, Liam. It was always our special time together. A time to be still and relaxed and just you and me. I can't believe that we're done. I would have nursed you longer, if you'd wanted to. I'm so proud of us for making it to 15 months! I know lots of other women have problems while breastfeeding, but I never did. It was easy from the beginning, and I rarely ever had any pain (other than when you bit me a few times!). I know it was the best thing I could do for you, and I'm so glad you never had a single drop of formula.

I was so scared to wean you, because I thought I'd have engorgement and pain, but I didn't since we did it so gradually. I haven't had any problems whatsoever. Thank goodness! I'm also glad that we were able to wean in a way that wasn't painful for you. You seem to be doing just fine. Now, we're reading a book before bed each night, sitting in the rocking chair where we used to nurse.

I love you SO much, Liam. In some ways, I feel like this is the end of you being a baby, and the start of you really being a big boy. But, you'll always be my baby.

Love,
Mommy

Words!

Liam,
You're finally starting to say some words! It's so exciting! This last weekend, you started saying banana ("nana")! I've always been worried that you're behind in terms of language development, but I think you're going to have a "language explosion" soon. I can just feel it! You definitely understand what we say to you. If we ask you to get the ball, or a book, you do it. And if we ask for a specific book, you'll pick exactly the right one out of your big collection of books. You can identify a dog, although really, you call almost everything a dog. :) You also love to say "no." I must say that I'm already tiring of this word. LOLLL

You're still nursing. We're just nursing in the evenings now. You've been waking up at around 5:30 every day. Daddy gets up with you and you guys have Daddy and Liam time while I sleep a little bit more, and then get ready for work. You watch "Curious George" each morning, and I think that Daddy enjoys it just as much as you.

The weather is getting nicer. Unfortunately, I bought you all 18 month clothes for the summer, and the shorts are all WAY too big! You're such a tiny little thing! (You were 20 lbs 14 oz and 30 inches at your 15 month appointment last week.) You like to play with the different balls that we have (basketball, soccerball, wiffleball), and run around outside. You also love to dig your hands into the dirt. I'm not so sure how long my pansies will last. :( I have a feeling that your hair is going to become really blonde this summer. It will be so cute!

You have two molars that have popped through, both on top. I know that you've been in a lot of pain because of this. I feel terrible because I can't do anything to help you.

I love you so much Liam.

Mommy