Constant movement

Constant movement- that's what you are lately. It's pretty unbelievable when I think about the changes in you in the last month or two. Going from sitting, to pulling up, to crawling... wow. You're so strong- it's becoming hard to hold you if you don't want to be held. And changing your diaper or clothes?! Such a struggle! If you're laid on your back, you immediately want to flip over into crawling position. You're just not content to sit still anymore. You always want to be on the move.

You've been sleeping like crap lately. I'm going to say that it's connected to teething, but of course I don't know if that's really true. The last few nights you've been wide awake for extended periods of time during the middle of the night. I feel dangerously tired today. Makes me wish I still drank caffeinated beverages, but I gave them up for you (as long as I'm breastfeeding). This morning, after attempting to feed you (and being bitten by you numerous times), I had to hand you to Daddy so I could walk away and cry. The mixture of being over-tired, and bitten over and over, was just too much. This was the first time that I've ever been driven to tears since you were born. It seems like most other new mothers say that they cried all the time in the early months, but I truly didn't.

Both of your bottom middle teeth are totally through now, and you want to use them all the time. Nursing you has become scary for me, quite frankly. You seem to end every feeding by biting me, really hard, and then pulling. I swear your teeth feel like miniature serrated knives on my nipples. It makes my cry, and you just laugh and laugh. I know you're not trying to hurt me, but the pain is indescribable. I really hope I can get you to stop biting soon... or I don't know how much longer I'll be able to breastfeed you. This makes me sad, and I really don't like to think about it too much. Please stop biting soon, Li Li Monster!

Love you,
Mommy